One thing I’ve learned is that even though it seems like we have become civilised and detached ourselves from nature, it still lives in us. Just like nature, we have our own personal seasons as well. Some seasons are for blooming and growth, some are for healing and saving your energy. We all have our ups and downs and I am currently living one of my downs. I feel unenergetic, slow and unmotivated and at times I beat myself up for it. This post is for everyone who feels the same.
For me, one of the hardest things in life is accepting the fact that it’s a rollercoaster. It’s never stable, it’s always moving and changing. What goes down, goes up someday and what goes up eventually goes down.
Sometimes you work hard and everything goes better than great, sometimes the best you can do all day is open your eyes and try to survive. Sometimes you manage to get up early and workout everyday, sometimes the only meal in your day is a chocolate bar and the only exercise is walking from your bed to the toilet. Sometimes you are happy, sometimes you are not and it’s ok. Everyone around you are the same.
NO ONE is always productive and motivated. Don’t compare yourself to anyone else, you don’t know if their downward spiral is on the way or if they have already experienced the worst moments last year and have just now found a new high. You just don’t know! People don’t often open up about that but this one is for sure: no one is safe from the hardships of life. You are allowed to feel sad even if you don’t have any huge serious problems in your life. You wouldn’t judge your friend if they told you they’ve felt a bit blue for some time now and have got nothing “PRODUCTIVE” done. So why would you judge yourself?
I did say we have seasons like nature so let’s truly think about nature right now. When winter is about to arrive, nature goes to a beauty sleep. Trees are NOT trying to force themselves to grow and thrive, they have no light to do that. When flowers have no nutrients to bloom, they won’t push it, instead they wait for a better time. Animals save their energy so they can get through the hard times. Many birds recognize the winter is coming and move to another country to enjoy a warmer climate. No one is fighting against this seasonal change, everyone accepts it as an inevitable part of life and tries their best to deal with it the way that fits their needs.
As should you when darkness hits you.
When you’re down, you should focus on healing. Try to find out why you feel like this and if there’s anything you can do to help it. Do whatever makes you feel a bit better and take care of yourself. Don’t feel guilty or apologise for how you feel. Give yourself some credit for how far you’ve come and what you’ve already survived and accomplished. Have some mercy and treat yourself with some positivity and encouragement.
If you haven’t worked out for a while, take a short walk and if you feel like it, go for another block. Make it an option to take a breather when you can’t go any further. Don’t demand more than you can give.
Nothing lasts forever. When you’re up, try to live in the moment and remind yourself to enjoy while it lasts even if you don’t want to think about the option that it goes down someday. And when it does go down, it might be difficult to see the light but just remember that no matter what you’re going through, it won’t stay that way forever. Sometimes it can take a while but one day you’ll rise back up.
With this post, I promise I’ll be patient with myself. I’ll give it time. I’ll wait until I find my power again.
I hope you do the same.